I think at some point I just got tired of not feeling worthy of love. I couldn’t say the right thing, I couldn’t do the right thing, I couldn’t be the right person and frankly I got tired of asking for love, begging for attention and deflecting the anger of not being the right person.
Last night, as I lay in bed praying, something real landed on me. It is this: My spouse’s intention should be to make me feel like I am the queen of the world. That he wants only to see me happy and healthy. His desire is for me to feel loved and to help me accomplish my deepest desires and help to make my dreams come true is his deepest desire.
I want my spouse to want to be with me. To like being with me. I do not want to have to go begging for him to like me or want to be with me. Now I realize not everyone has the same emotional needs as I do.