I have spent this week answering interrogatories from my husbands attorney. I have had to bring up memories from the past that I would rather forget. Especially since it seems so long ago and so worth forgiving and letting go.
I have had to produce documents on our financial dealings over the last 15 years. This is curious to me because we have been together for 19. We’ve been married for 16. The attorney is asking me to go back 15 years. The IRS doesn’t require more than three years and in extreme cases seven. I think this request is unusual and in fact cruel. It feels like more harassment.
I have had to produce a list everything in our house. Everything that was bought during our marriage and items from prior to our marriage. I have had to list who bought them and who should get them. I don’t know who bought the dvd CARS but I know my husband thinks that because he earned the money he bought everything.
It’s curious to me as well, how my husband forgot that I have worked. I worked for the U.S. Census in 2010 counting people. That job was great! I traveled all around the state of Wyoming. I worked as a gymnastics coach. I worked in our businesses.
If my husband were half way decent right now we would simply and kindly go through the items in the house and determine who has what. But he is relentless in his pursuit of harassing me. The good thing for me is I am becoming very aware of my triggers. I notice them much more quickly now so I am better able to acknowledge them and deal appropriately with the physical and emotional side effect of his torment.
The harassment I have endured because of Tim’s behavior has made me stronger in my walk with God. I have entrenched myself in the Bible and learning more about the truth that God wants for all of us. A life of hope, joy, mercy and abundance.
Each week Tim has created some type of crisis. Each week that crisis has given me the opportunity to be strong in faith and love. Each week that crisis has brought me closer to being the woman God intended for me to be at my conception.
Today is independence day. Today I claim my independence. Today I have the freedom to choose my future. I choose my future to follow Christ where ever I am lead.