What I want you to know more than anything is that if you feel depressed or suicidal or just really, really sad you can find help.
Start today to find a counselor that you feel comfortable talking to. Someone who isn’t going to force feed you their beliefs. Someone that is truly interested in what is best for you.
A good friend recently shared with me that she was on medication for depression. Not something we mention too much around our Christian community because, well, to be honest, you should be able to pray your sadness away. She told me that it took her a long time to start taking the medication until her therapist provided this piece of wisdom, “If you were diagnosed with diabetes, heart disease, arthritis or cancer, you would take medication for that, wouldn’t you?”
If you were sick or had a broken arm you would go to the doctor wouldn’t you?
I pray in this moment if you are asking “What now Jesus?” your answer is find a certified counselor to talk to. Do it now. Don’t wait.